Peter的小窝

using lib computer to write this is why i dont type in chinese.

i dont like to write journal in english cuz my english is not good enough to describe all my mind. but I cannot wait, I want to say sth as venting.

i used one part of my tuition for a camaro and got the loan from bank. i am crazy?! i dont know. maybe. i didnt tell parents about these cuz im afraid of criticising. if they know this i cannot imagine the result of myself. i dont know how i decided to do that. mom asked me to wait for another few months. but i didnt. whatever.

just back from the NY and it was a pretty good trip except the quarred with friend. im puzzled when two guys being familiar with each other, they start to get mad, being impatient with each other. i dont want the friendship falls apart or lose. but i cannot control these. everything is changing anytime. i dont know whatll happen next sec, but i'll try my best for protecting friendship.

i bought one bottle of the perfume named The Beat which is the same as the one which was given by 47. when the dealer asked me about the name of the car plate, i told him i want the 5247. he checked but that wasnot available.

cannt stop thinking of u, this feeling is real painful. dont know how long i can endure. sometimes, i want to give up, throw everything u gave me, the perfume, the letters, the cards,  the memories. the biggest trouble for people is a good memory. cuz of remembering everthing happed between us before, the happiness, the sadness, first time touch u hand, first time kiss u...........when i have a rest, sometimes, i read the letters u wrote to me, smelt the perfume. my friend questioned me i am sick or i created an ex-gf and enjoy in my own world.

maybe, im real sick.